35. So today,

I am pretty much speechless. So many things, unpleasant things, happened today but I can't complain because good stuffs actually happened too. Problem being is, the bad stuffs are really fucked up stuffs, and the good ones are REALLY, REALLY good. Yeah, it's a balanced day, but this negative feelings inside need to get out, only I can't get it out because if I do, I would sound so ungrateful. Therefore, by writing this post I hope I can find a conclusion - whether I should feel bad about everything or just smile and take everything as good things. EH BERAPA BANYAK THINGS DAAA.



  1. This morning I had serious mental block when I needed to finish my assignment in four hours. I really couldn't write a thing even though I had the ideas in my head (at one point I actually thought of doing the assignment blog-style, v-log when I am lazy PFFFTH).
  2. However, the good thing is boyfriend skype-d me early in the morning (Malaysia time) sebelum dia mula dengan kerja dia yang sangat menuntut komitmen dan perhatian penuhnya so I was feeling very happy (walaupun muka ketat tak dapat siapkan assignment, sorry). ♥
  3. Tapi dalam mental block tu, akhirnya berjaya jugak siapkan assignment dan hantar in time, walaupun mula2 rasa MATI LA AKU MESTI FAIL PAPER NI *actually lepas hantar pun rasa macam tu, tapi sebab dah hantar, perasaan tu lagi dominating dari perasaan akan fail paper*.
  4. But then, bila nak submit online baru perasan kerja yang berjaya dihantar on time tu sebenarnya ada cacat!! In referencing!!! I have never done such silly mistake on FREAKING REFERENCING OMG HORROR SANGAT RASA T_______T
  5. Then dapat berita, kasut yang diorder untuk formal dinner hari Jumaat dah dipos tengah hari tu jugak walaupun bayaran masih belum di-clear untuk si penjual. Tapi baiknya hati dia sebab tau saya nak guna kasut tu urgently! TQ TQ! ((:
  6. The bad news pulak, is that my hands tiba-tiba sakit sangat. Bukan lenguh. Sakit. Padahal kerja tak siap lagi (note that I have an assignment due tomorrow, yang belum start pun lagi, and a test tomorrow morning so no time for procrastination).
  7. But masih ada good news! Saya jumpa balik kunci bilik saya yang dah hilang dua hari, lega sangat rasanya! Lepas ni tak payah melanguk lagi tunggu orang bukakkan pagar untuk pergi kelas (walaupun hakikatnya dah dua hari tak pergi kelas, but hey, to be fair, hari ni memang tak ada kelas so basically baru sehari tak pergi kelas okay). 
  8. Benda yang tak baik pulak, bila dah bersemangat nak pergi top up student ID untuk printing and photocopying (petang tu tak dapat nak buat sebab kad tertinggal di bilik), STUDENT ID HILANG TERCICIR ENTAH KE MANA! Bukan student ID saya saja yang hilang, Bill punya pun! Dan ATM/EFTPOS (a.k.a debit card) PUN HILANG SEKALI!!
Masya Allah dugaan apakah ini? Memang agak tension sebab hampir semua benda berkait dengan EFTPOS tu (sebab saya sedang cuba elak penggunaan kad kredit, untuk beli tiket pulang summer ni). Jadi, hari ni memang rasa malang sangat despite semua perkara baik yang berlaku kepada saya, sebab kehilangan tu jadi highlight of the day.

Baiklah, konklusinya, this isn't a good day. Tapi itu bukan alasan untuk saya terus nak bersedih/bermasam muka/berlaku seolah-olah masih PMS atau hampir menopaus. Sebab perkara baik pun terjadi juga, maka saya akan berlaku adil kepada hari ini dan tak akan tunduk kepada perkara-perkara kurang baik ini. Redha. Let everything go. Dan teruskan dengan hidup.

p.s: Terima kasih Chapix, sebab tolong cari kad2 walaupun malam ni sejuk sangat and kita berdua cuma pakai selipar jamban dan sweater nipis. Dan terima kasih for the Starbucks Cafe Mocha. Menenangkan jugak. And terima kasih Bill sebab memahami. ♥ ♥ Sorry sangat I lost your student ID. I'll bear the cost of making a new one :( And boyfriend, terima kasih sebab risau. Tapi awak tak payah risau. I'm letting it all go. (:

Comments

Misz B said…
haha. i won't mind about the ID card. coz it's not that hard to get a new one. so no worries
10 June 2010 at 12:11
Misz B said…
i mean student ID. fff
10 June 2010 at 12:12
hawanasir said…
I ♥ you billllll
10 June 2010 at 13:21
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