Evil takes over your supposedly most peaceful state of mind.

What I hate/fear the most about nightmares isn't really how vivid it is, but the frustration/humiliation/fear/any negative feelings I had in those nightmares (which should be coming from my subconscious) are magnified to so many times that when I wake up, I would wish that I am some sort of a robot so I wouldn't feel all that.

Yes, right now I am not up because I wanted to stay up. I was woken up by yet another nightmare. That feeling I had in that particular nightmare left me numb. And I called Naim, almost broke into tears telling him about it. I didn't, but the trauma still hasn't left me.


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